Clouded Veil Society website is almost done

I have been working on this for the last couple of days and I am really excited about it. It is coming along ALOT better than I had hoped it would. With Bill and Tina moving closer we can actually start doing some investigations again. That's going to be awesome!!! Nothing like creeping thru a cemetery or abandoned old house with good friends lol Here is the website: Clouded Veil Society

Waiting...

It's a go yay!!! We were able to get the bus ticket and now we just have to wait until the date to take him to Joplin to go. The 27th. Ugh!!! That seems so far away!!! But at least I know that it is a done deal. I hate to feel this way, but I want my house back. I want to be able to get in there and clean and know it's going to stay like that because I won't feel the need to hide in my room all the damned time. Which I do now. Basically because the house is trashed and it just irritates me to no end to have to go in there. I guess the reason is becasue there is a supposed "adult" in there and they can't stay on top of 3 teenage girls to keep it at least picked up. I'm not talking spotless, but at least to where I am not totally ashamed to have anyone come over. I am just thankful my people don't look at that when they do come. None the less it is mortifying. Why don't I do something about it? Why? I mean, if no one else wants to help me keep it clean then why bother right now? And I am not speaking so much of my children. I want to be able to clean with the least amount to stress. And honestly that isn't going to happen, if there are other adults just sitting on their asses while the kids do all the work. No, I would rather wait until he leaves and Derek is at work. Then me and the kids can just get in the zone and clean. The girls are excited to finally have the prospect of getting their room finally cleaned out so that they can have at least a little space to their own. And I am too. I really am a hermit for the most part, but even I don't want to be in my room for 24/7. I would like to be able to go into the livingroom and kick back with the kids and watch TV. Or play on the laptop. Or just whatever. But someone always seems to have something else going on out there. And right now, I can't go in there to relax. There's just too much crap everywhere. It's ridiculous. Yes, the kids should know better, but if the adults aren't setting the right example, then you can't actually expect them to clean up after themselves. And actually what is going on...the kids aren't cleaning. People have gotten into the habit of having them as their little servants and basically the kids are done. I can't blame them. I didn't have them and raise them to be anyone's damned maids!!! Yeah...that's not flying so well. And Nik is old enough now that she has very little issue telling anyone so.

And I want to move too. But I know that isn't going to be likely until at least tax time. So, it's not a pressing issue. I think once we get things settled and situated here, we will be okay for the time til. Or even if we will. This is a really cute trailer and could be such again...sigh...did I forget to mention that patience IS NOT one of my strong points? lol That's a big issue. I want it all and I want it NOW!!! I know, I know...Hoping things will level out soon. There's no reason why it shouldn't actually. Just have to work at it.

Damn, Damn, Double Damn...

Not exactly sure how we are going to swing the damned bus ticket this week. My child support hasn't come in this week and so we only have Derek's check. Hoping if I book far enough in advance then we will be able to swing in. Ugh!!! Being a grown up sux butt some times. Always having to worry about $$$. That really is our biggy. Seems no matter how hard we try we just keep getting kicked back.





I have decided that the eye thing is a part sinus cold in my eye. Of course that also means I feel as though my nose is going to drip off my face at any minute. I have been sniffling for 2 days straight now, with no relief in sight it seems. I have been taking Alka-Seltzer Cold and it seems to be keeping it somewhat at bay. Couple that with lovely allergies and yeah...not a pretty site. Actually pretty damned pathetic lol

But all and all...

Hoping things work out for the best. Or for my sanity at least. If we can't do it this week, then I guess there's always next week. Just not looking forward to the pouting that I am sure will insue.



Waiting...

I am going crazy!!! First off there's this damn eye thing going on. I know it's allergies, but that isn't helping. I am doing everything possible that I can think of to make it better. And it is going that way, but it is taking soooo long and we all know that patience IS NOT one of my strong points lol I have pretty much kept myself in the bedroom. I don't know what it is about the living room, other than it being closer to the dirt road, but inevitably my eye gets worse the longer I stay in there. And it just isn't worth it to me. 

This also happens to be the issue with waiting for Kyle to leave. I guess we are suppose to be getting his bus ticket to Florida this week and I am so ready. I will finally have my house back. He's not really all that bad, but I just don't like to have to answer to someone ALL the time. Someone always wanting to know what I am doing, why I am doing it, knowing it can be done in a better way. UGH!!! That drives me nuts. I haven't even really started working on putting the house together. I don't want the input. 

He's driving the kids nuts too. Didn't realize how much they get bitched at. I know they aren't perfect. I wouldn't want them to be, but OMG!!! really?!?! They aren't the next serial killers. Just let them be. If I don't have a problem with the way they are then I don't think anyone else should either. Well...I mean, they can have an issue, but they don't need to be soooo f***ing vocal about it all the time. Yeah, it's getting old :(

My survival kit lol

What a pain, but it keeps my fingers out if my eye :(

Ugh!!!

I hate allergies with a passion. I usually don't get them as bad as I have this year. Usually just sniffles and sneezes, but there's something that has wormed it's way into the house. Especially the front rooms. My left eye is having fits and burns constantly when I am in there. Not so bad in my room. The only thing I can think of it all the dirt being kicked up from the road. Hasn't bothered me before, but who knows? I sure don't :( If it would rain for about a week straight then I could tell, but I don't see that happening anytime in the near future.

I am feeling somewhat better. I think I am finally over the worst part of the flu. That succcckkkked!!! Especially since Mother Nature decided to pay a visit during my illness. Double ugh!!! But all's well for the time being. Let's just hope it stays that way lol

Round and round I go...

Genetics suck!!! I have vertigo. Handed down to me from my dad's side of the family. It's a serious inner ear imbalance that literally can put you on your ass when it decides to hit. Like today, got up to go to the bathroom and found myself bouncing off walls like I was drunk. Which I wasn't. Balance suddenly MIA. I hate this feeling so~~~ much!!! Everything is on a constant spin. Neck feels rubbery. Just ugh!!!