My time to whine...

Unfortunately reality is a mean SOB. Instead of letting me go on blissfully denying the ever obvious fact that I will be 40 this year. And that I was none to careful with the way I abused my body over the years. (Who knew I would actually live this long?!? I had myself dead and buried by 30!!!) It decides to start dropping the not so subtle (and often painful) hints about my lack of better judgment when I was younger.

1: Might as well start with the reason I am even up at this horrid hour. My knees and elbows are killing me :( Especially since we have had a storm front park its a** on top of us. Arthritis it seems has made me its new BFF. Years of waiting tables has come back to bite me in the a**.

2: Which leads to the second reason I don't sleep most nights. Years of working in the chicken plants has blessed me with carpal tunnel and gangolian cysts in both hands. Most of the time when I try to go to sleep, they beat me to it and start throbbing. Which then leads to the pressure pain. Forget about writing for any amount of time or cooking. Surgery is NOT an option. Just for the simple fact there's a good chance I could lose the use of my hands all together.

3: My kidneys. Well, I believe that the issues I have with them maybe caused by a medication I had to take when I was little. They are getting worse. Infections are more often and the lower back pains are almost constant. There's not much to be done at this point but take the antibiotics and wait. Dialysis is almost a certain factor in my future.

4: My pancreas. This issue is rather new. Seems I have pancritis. Or however it is spelt. It's more annoying than anything.  What I eat depends on how long I get to be bathroom bound and how long I will have an acid reflex assault.  Red meat and spicy food are the worst.

I always wondered why it seemed older people always got up before the sun. I couldn't figure out what was so damned important that they needed to be up so early. I think I have that little mystery figured out. It's not that they are up per say. Chances are they were awaken by some nagging pain. Or they haven't even been to sleep yet.

5: Insomnia. I have always had it. But it seems that the older I get, the harder it is becoming for me to fall asleep at all :( Days without any sleep, decent or otherwise makes for a very grumpy me.

I feel like a lion with a thorn in its paw. *RAWR*